salty tears.

Today has been an emotional roller-coaster ride.
& Its raining now.
:/


Firstly, I've GRADUATED FROM ART!
Haha, at least thats something to keep me from sinking at the moment.
To the Rest : Hey, if I could get out, so can you!

Secondly, since today was the 'end' of Term 2, we had Use Your Hands campaign today. Through this activity, you can really see who cares, and who doesn't give 2 hoots about everyone else.
There were people who really REALLY got on my nerves. I'm not mentioning names, but I really really have to rant, so excuse me.

THEY JUST SAT THERE, NOT MOVING THEIR BUTTS OUT OF THEIR SEATS WHEN THE REST OF US WERE CLEANING THE CLASS!
COME ON! HOW COULD YOU BE SO SELF-CENTRED AND CLAIM THAT YOU'VE DONE YOUR PART BY JUST CLEANING THE AREA THAT YOU SIT ON?! MOREOVER, YOU DIDN'T EVEN CLEAN IT YOURSELF!
IF EVERYONE WAS AS SELFISH AS YOU, THE WORLD WOULD COME TO AN END IMMEDIATELY. ITS NOT LIKE YOU DON'T USE THE CLASSROOM AS WELL!
YOU JUST SIT THERE, READING YOUR BOOK, AND COMPLAINING THAT IT WAS HOT JUST BECAUSE WE TURNED OFF THE FANS TO SWEEP THE FILTHY FLOOR! SOME EVEN HAD THE CHEEK TO TURN ON THE FANS!
DON'T GIVE ME THE EXCUSE THAT YOU DIDN'T SEE ANYONE THAT REQUIRED YOUR HELP, CAUSE IF YOU LOOKED AROUND HARD ENOUGH, YOU COULD EASILY SEE FILTHY SPOTS IF YOU WERE OHSOKIND ENOUGH TO LIFT UP YOUR HEAD.
DON'T JUST BLURT OUT STUFF, THINK BEFORE YOU DO.

BAKA.



Oh that was good.
Anyway, school seems to take up alot of my energy, I can stand happy and smiling at school, but when the day ends, I'm so worn out that my face muscles can't even twitch.
I like the park near my house, its so peaceful at night, when you're alone there at like 9pm, the reflective mood just comes over you, and you'd ponder you life away.
I can sit there for hours just looking out into space, but when I'm unlucky, when the forlorn mood falls upon me, the playground seems to turn on me, playing on my most sensitive memories.

Where it hurts the most.


& I think about you again.
As if every second isn't enough.

Tomorrow's Cedar Cross Country at Temasek Polytechnic.
I'll probably be jogging, too unfit already, haven't been exercising.
Soleil darl offered to jog with me (:

Don't you think that secretly admiring is more satisfactory than really being with the person? It may just be a weird thinking of mine, but it seems to work for me!
Haha, to come clean, its been 6 years already, and I'm still foolishly clinging on to you, or rather, the dream of you.
You've changed alot since then, confusing me, so I don't know whether I like you, or the 'you' in the past.
Thinking of you keeps my heart and mind occupied, and it keeps the cold away.

Sometimes