The short video clip screened in school today with regard to the Qinghai earthquake really made me rethink what I'm doing in life, and am I doing enough?
It is scary, but the truth that in this short span of 4 months into the 2010 year, approximately 6 gigantic natural disasters have struck the people around us. Some that could have been people we'd get to know in the future, people who could have been special to our lives.
These earthquakes and tsunamis whether predestined or not, have taken countless lives away, but not ours, not those who could be reading this right now.
The questions that bugged me today were:
What have I ever done to deserve to live on right now, while the lives of
others have been taken away?
What can I do to continue to deserve to live on? Can I do more? Is it enough?
It only took moments to do a quick evaluation of the life I lead now.
Everyday I go to school, complete my goals to obtain a good-looking cert in the end, and maybe a better life. Although you may argue that all of these are essential to living in the materialistic life in Singapore, or in the modern and highly-competitive world, but these are all really selfish goals.
Maybe I'm doing this for my family, to support my brothers in the future and fulfil the duty of a fillial daughter.
But I know that now, in this very moment, that I want to lead a meaningful life, and do that justice by helping others. Helping them improve their lives, cope through their obstacles, be there to lend a ready helping hand.
The job of a social worker may not be enough to sustain a family, but if I live my whole life not fully satisfied with what I'm doing, not doing enough for others, then I'd leave this world with regrets, not accomplishing the purpose that I was born for.
I am not afraid of doing the dirty jobs that people wouldn't in the frontline. I want to be there, helping first-hand, not just by donations. Whether it is hauling the bodies of the dead or rescuing the living, I want to be there.
Mankind is no island.
I understand that now. Every little action goes a far way, but I have never done enough and gone the furthest I can.
Those times I had at old folks homes helping out, or teaching the brain-injured kids yoga are just the surface of what I can do for the people. I did those not because of the CIP hours awarded, but really for my passion, that I guarantee.
I'm not saying that all the knowledge I'm getting now are of no use, you never know when that little insight or wisdom may help yourself or others down the road.
But now I have to re-evaluate what I'm doing in life and map out my future.
Do something, more.
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