Split between 2

People have been making me feel real messed up lately, it's even messing up my sleep, which NEVER happened ):

我的心好乱，分不清友情和爱情。越来越觉得自己是多么的卑鄙无耻，我真的不想斯骗你的感情而变成瞧不起的花花公主。我真的稀望你能放弃于我们这段感情，也绕了你自己面得又再受到伤害。我配不上你，也不直得你无微不侄地爱我。

打是疼，骂是爱。

我所对你的残忍是真心的为你好，请你望记我，原谅我吧。