Beautiful Closure

This person, deserves a special post.

Dear Danial,

It's almost been a month since we've stopped talking but I feel that this is the appropriate time to for this blogpost. I don't know if you still read this space, but I hope you do see this somewhere, somehow.

3 years together with you has been full of ups and downs, so much happiness, so many problems. It's saddening to say that we knew this would end someday, but just kept on dragging it, refusing to face facts.

I've grown so much with you but there are some things that will never change. I've never regretted having all those moments, fleeting as they were, created memories enough to last me a whole lifetime. The only thing I regret is letting you go, knowing that I'll never ever be able to find someone who adores me as much as you.

Adore is the most suitable word I can find to describe what you've given me all these years. So much boundless love irregardless of how I hurt you, what I wore, how heavy I am and how I look. It was like a dream come true to have someone like you love me when I felt my ugliest, had moments of deep desperation and when my heart bled like it wouldn't survive tomorrow.

You've been my strength that never failed me. Strength you didn't even know you gave me when I felt so disappointed with myself, felt like I have failed my brothers, my family, I guess you understood perfectly, being the older sibling in the family as well.

3 years has been the longest time I've been committed to someone, or rather, the longest time that anyone has been able to withstand me. But now that it's over, it gives me happiness to find that I'm actually worth being loved, being cared for and being cherished. There wasn't a moment in our relationship that made me lose faith that you loved me, never at all.

Just a small taste of heaven is enough, I won't be greedy or expecting anymore.

I hope that you'll come to believe and learn that you don't have to be anyone but yourself to make others happy. You don't have to try too hard and above all, you are worth being loved, so don't settle for any less. Learn to stand up to injustice just because you deserve more. Learn to be strong for yourself, even to those who love you. I wish you all the best in breaking free of all the unfairness constantly in your life, and hope that you won't sit there a swallow it just to find yourself bursting like a dam someday.

And of course, I wish your whole family the best.

With what little we can do, bit by bit, move on. I'll send my regards to the next girl you meet, hoping that she'll recognize that you'll be the best thing that has happened to her, and do the same for you.

Moving, moving, moving. Until thoughts of you no longer pervade my head, but instead become painless and bittersweet memories.

There isn't a word to sum up how grateful and thankful I feel for having you in my life. We may become total strangers inevitably, but I wish for the day we'll be able to hang and talk like good friends, nothing more.

All the best for this year and many others ahead, you talented, colourblind artist.