Schizo

Spent the better part of the day with the boy today and made brunch, i.e. eggs Benedict ^^

Everytime we're together, I feel so grateful and happy that we've happened. Then the stupid gut feeling of mine starts bugging me.

Like I love you but I still feel that we have an expiry even though you decided to try. Best thing about all this is that I'm the one not having enough confidence that you'd want me enough for us to pull through. :/

I don't want this to end, to just be a passing phase in my life, but the voice in my head won't leave me alone. All I am doing now is to give my all and spend every moment with you like we only have a month left & hope that you would find something worth fighting for.

I want my courage and confidence back, to be sure of where I stand with you. Sorry if I ask too much about what you're thinking or nonsensical stuff like if you still like me. It's retarded but every answer I take seriously and is very important. Sorry for all this insecurity k I don't know what am I ranting about anymore, it's been a good day so I shall stop here and not spoil it further.

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