Transition

FYP; check.
University; check.
Graduation; check.
Job; check.
Job(s); check.


....companionship....?
platonic; check.
romantic; .....is this a priority?

This transitional period in my life has gotten me feeling so, excited, wistful, bittersweet, and anticipatory.

I've stepped out of my self-conscious and somewhat inferior complex and starting hitting the gym, by myself and with X to teach me of course. Started to exercise at least 3 times a week, lifting and running. Food-wise has also improved because I've moved back home and there's fruits and veg at every meal. Less oil and carbs too. I guess to complete my regime, I need to introduce meditation cuz god knows my brain will need it for the type of work I'm committing myself to.

Career-wise, besides getting a job out of the country (I'll get to it later on), it has been a dream. I highly suspect some sort of magic at play. Either that or I have just used up all my good karma that I've gathered so far in one go.

I'm left hungry, ambitious, and yet a tad bit cautious that I might be biting into more than I can chew. But what's new right?

And the other inevitable side of life: friends/acquaintances have been getting hitched and babied up left-right-centre and I can't help feeling wistful. It's a chapter that I've felt, close. Right in front of me. Those days of dating and finding a compatible romantic companion whilst laying my foundations in my formal education, is over.

Any hope of finding someone to be hungry and gobble up life-experiences with, is gone.

In this transitional phase, I am officially putting that away, not even in my list of priorities.

It would only become one if I happen to meet someone steamrolling in the same direction, at the same speed and bright enough to block out the light I guess. There's no settling in standards for that.

I once thought that I could be engaged at this age, or have the promise of lifetime companionship, and hopefully start my own family by 26. But really, the chances me letting that happen now is close to 10%.

Career - first.
Experiences - maybe fighting for the same place or slightly lower.
Herbalism/perfumery - second
Self-growth - above all
Financial portfolio - of course.


I am striving to be brighter, more committed and a more sincere individual than I have ever been.

Always checking myself before saying/doing something:
Is it necessary? Is it kind?

And I need to live by that, which means expecting no less from romantic partners of sorts.

Adult life: I am ready. And I will grab you by the horns. Come at me with all you've got.